Oklahoma Adventures Week 41

May 11th - May 18th

This week has been....what's the word for it, chaotic, stressful, overwhelming, to say the least, a CHALLENGE! This is one of the rare moments this week that Logan wasn't fussing over something. :)
For the most part Logan is always very happy and makes us smile all the time, but this week was rough, I ended up having to work more because of things going on at work, and Morgan worked all this week since he didn't have any classes. (I have to brag here a little bit, my smarty pants of a husband got an A in his Physics class that he thought he was going to fail...and apparently according to everyone in that Physics program you have to do really really well to get an A. So, YAY for Morgan-that class was a big stresser and worked really hard for it.)

Anyway, so because I had to work more, Logan spent more time playing by himself since he doesn't take as many or as long of naps anymore and "emergency" phone conferences aren't something I can just put off and do later when daddy gets home. Sometimes his toys will keep him occupied for a while, like his ducks.
But for the most part during the day, he just wants mommy and as soon as he sees me go into the office or get on my computer, he has a total meltdown - and it's melting my heart! I feel wo terrible with him looking up at me with those big tears in his eyes, and me not knowing what to do. I walk around with him while I talk, but sometimes even that won't make him happy. Usually, I only work when he's napping or early in the morning before he's awake or when Morgan is still home to play with him. I felt like such a terrible mom this week because I think the TV spent more time with him during the day this past week than I did. :( He's really good and enjoys his Letter Factory Video during snack time, but it only last for 35 minutes, so when that's over he wants to play. He's also at that clingy stage where he wants to be held all the time, but when you hold him, all he wants to do is get down or have you take him here or there or go outside. (1 year olds are really hard on a pregnant woman's back :) We're also at that awkward stage where he knows what he wants, but hasn't quite figured out how to tell us other than pointing and crying until we figure it out. We're trying to work on sign language or some form of communication, but the patience hasn't been there this week. It's been quite exhausting and it doesn't help that I'm pregnant and tired, and stressed from work as well. My patience has been hanging on a thread, I'm sure all of you moms out there know exactly what I'm talking about - but seeing all those great moms out there does give me hope that I will survive and overcome. Especially when I catch one of these big smiles from Logan during the day.
Then I know that he is okay and will forgive us of our shortcomings and for not being perfect all the time. If only we could all be like little children and forgive and forget so easily. I don't know what I would do without my boys in my life, and as hard as it has been this past week I still can't wait to welcome another one into our lives. Those trying moments make the special ones so much more meaningful. And Morgan sure has been a trooper putting up with such a tightly wound preggo wife this week.

So, we're headed to St. George this week on Wednesday for a Family Reunion and we'll be there for a week and I can't tell you how excited I am to leave work and stress behind and rejuvenate myself and re-focus on what's most important and making my home and family happy. You know the phrase, when momma ain't happy, nobody's happy....I think that is really true, I think Logan has been especially whiny this week because of my own temperament, so I'm really looking forward to that re-adjustment and being able to bring peace and happiness into the home again. I've realized how important it really is to keep your home free of anger, impatience, stress, and unnecessary worrying, and all the other negative forces I have succumbed to this week. It's amazing the things we learn from our children and being a parent!

And for an explanation of this last picture, on top of everything else, our home is being invaded by killer ants (not really killer ants, but they give me the heeby jeebies, I'm allergic to them, and not really invaded, nothing a can of RAID can't cure, but still, where's the drama in that?). We caught them starting to come in the kitchen so we attacked them with Raid and haven't had any problems since-and we now make sure we sweep and mop real good every night to get all the crumbs from Logan. This however was attack of the ants in the office. Being pregnant requires that I eat frequent snacks and I usually have time to do this when Logan is napping and I'm working, thus in the office. I decided to indulge in a small bowl of ice cream one hot afternoon. I forgot to take the bowl in the kitchen, but didn't think anything of it. I didn't remember it until 3-4 hours later when Morgan and I were going to watch a movie and I wanted some more ice cream, I went in to get the bowl and it was covered in ants. They had come in through a crack somewhere in the wall or window, made their way up my computer cords and onto the desk into the bowl. I freaked out, covered my mouth and basically unloaded and entire can of RAID on them. (So, far I haven't noticed any damage to my computer or the electronics that were around.)

We let the room air out for a little while and made sure me and Logan stayed out of there, then later that night when Logan when to bed, Morgan helped me deep clean the office and make sure I hadn't left any crumbs anywhere else. It's been a couple days now and only an occasional ant will show up and I smash it with great pleasure (sorry to all you ant lovers out there-this was a great way to relieve some stress :)

So, all in all, I hope this wasn't a depressing entry. This is the story of our lives and our adventures and what an adventure this week was! I just know there are other mothers out there who I'm sure have had weeks like mine or worse...and we will survive! We are women, we are MOTHERS! And it really is all worth it. :) ..till next time..in sunny St. George.